How I Grew Back My Ex Husband’s Hair With Sadism And Science

Karina Pawlak
6 min readFeb 13, 2024
Fluffiness Restored. 2024. Karina + NightCafe

“What is that in your hand?” Scott demands.

“Do you want your hair back or not?”

“Yes, but…”

“Do you trust me?”


“Good. Don’t move.”

I left Scott nine years ago. He promised me to stop drinking once our son was born. He didn’t. I cried. I pleaded. I begged. I raged. I threatened. Nothing worked. One day I couldn’t take it anymore. I took my son and left. Baby Thor was one.

I found a place close by so Baby Thor could see his father. I chaperoned visits and park dates. I smiled. But a storm of bitterness and resentment raged in me. How could he not stop drinking?

“Mama, will you ever be happy?” Baby Thor asked when he turned seven.

I realized that I need to heal. I didn’t want to curse baby Thor with my storm.

As I worked on myself the resentment towards Scott faded. I started to see him for the traumatized soul that he is.

“I am going bald,” Scott cried last summer.

When I met Scott he had long blond rock ‘n’ roll hair. It looked dynamite. I noticed it thinning over the…



Karina Pawlak

Philosopher. Artist. Powerlifter. Author of Lifting Weights & Growing Organs.